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1 .Do you parents know about your ED? never!!! but i think they play a HUGE role in it

2. How about your friends? not really, no one will ever know the extent of it :)

3. Ever been to recovery? nope, not sick enough.

4. How much weight do you want to lose? 40-50 lbs

5. What do you think started your ED? my mum's food issues/body issues ... typical angst during teen years, family family family!!!

6. What other illnesses besides an ED do you have? anxiety and depression.

7. Do any of your friends have an ED?one, and she's back in treatment, so i hate myself even more for wanting this while she's trying to get better!!

8. Does anyone in your family have an ED? as far as i'm concerned the majority of my immediate family has "food issues" and my mum has bulemic tendencies

9. How often do you weigh yourself? 7 or 8 times when on one's around ..... 2 or 3 when i run the risk of getting noticed :S

Put an "x" in the boxes that apply to you
[] I am or have been suicidal
[x] I do/used to self harm
[] I drink/use drugs
[ x] I purge
[x] I hide/throw away food
[x] I hardly have any friends because of my ED
[x] I never go out anymore
[] I exercise excessively

Finish the sentence...
1. When I weigh myself…I get pissed off for eating
2. I eat.. to fill the void, to hide emotions, to make myself feel better (but only feel worse)
3. I hate... Myself
4. If I were at my ultimate goal weight…I would finally be happy
5. If my parents knew about my ED…my mum wouldn't believe me cuz i'm too fat to have an ED
6. I need…to be skinny
7. I wish...i wasn't so fat
8. I lie… to everyone so that no one knows the real true me
9. I miss... being happy

i'm lost.
i'm lonely.
i don't know where i belong or even who i belong to.
i know i'm not on my own, but i feel like am.
i feel like i'm not making any sense.
i'm not making any sense.
i sound all emo.
im not emo.

i'm just lost and lonely.
i need someone.
anyone.
i have no one but myself.
i hate myself.

god i'm so emo