down??

So my family from Ireland just left after being here for two weeks. Those two weeks consisted of eatin out almost everyday. I was stressed to the max. Eating all that food led to everyone talking about how much weight they were gaining, or what they're going to do to get rid of the wieght. Needless to say it was quite stressful to listen to them all piss and moan about it. Somehow (MIRACULOUSLY!!!) I've managed to lose almost 5lbs in these 2 weeks. I wasn't even trying. I was planning on getting ack on track once they left. But maybe cuz I was so stressed about it I was subconsciously NOT eating as much as everyone. Is it possible that not stressing about it and not constantly counting my calories has acutally worked to my advantage?!?! Has it actually helped me to gain control over my eating and lose weight? What a crazy concept? I'm not sure how I feel about it .....

stresssmesss

So i registered for school today, only to find out I was supposed to pay $440 by 4.30 today. Clearly that didn't happen. Money is stressing me out. I'm working two jobs, but i still seem to be drowning. And now I'm going back to school, which will cut into possible working time. Am I completely crazy?
I have a hard time justifying going back to school right now. I can't make myself wrap my head around the fact that it WILL help me in the future. I just can't get it when I'm struggling so much right now. I KNOW it will help me, but how can I put that much money into it right now when I'm not getting anything back right away.
I"m going to have to find some way to run on as little sleep as possible. I'll have to get as much sleep in the next two weeks as I can to make it through the next year lol I just hope Winners keeps me on past the store opening cuz I'm truly screwed if I don't have that job! Fuck! Why did I ever give up the Bad Boy job?? I was guarenteed good hours and fairly good money! Fuck I'm a moron!! Why do I do this shit to myself. I just keep digging a deeper and deeper hole.

I can only blame myself :(