It's been awhile and not much has changed :(
I've stopped going to the gym. I've lost motivation. And I've hit a plateau. Hitting a plateau is probably the worst thing I could ever! Because when I hit a plateau I generally start to go back up.

I can't go back up.

I need to get my shit together. I'm finally working a full-time job. One job. No evenings. NO weekends! Just one 9-5 job. And so I need to get motivated to get my ass back to the gym. I need to get motivated to stop eating again! I saw the results, so why did I stop? I hate myself!

I've felt like shit lately. I'm not happy with my life. And it all comes back to my body. I've been eating too much, I haven't been working out and it's taking a toll on me. I need to get my shit together. Why am i always saying this? ... and never doing anything about it?

Smarten the fuck up!

It's thanksgiving weekend, I had one family dinner yesterday and I have another one today. I will allow myself to indulge, but I WILL NOT OVERINDULGE!!! And from now on Monday-Friday will be 500 cals only! I NEED to start counting again! I will allow myself to eat more on weekends, but only b/c it's harder to hide itif I don't eat! And I'll start going to the gym again! At least 3 times a week for the month of October! PLUS yoga on Sundays! I HAVE to do this.

Do it right you stupid bitch!